there was a special altar call.
and that pastor can read my mind!
wahh. at times, i am rather afraid of these ppl.
cause they will know what is happening in my life without me telling.
it’s rather scary.

i didn’t want to respond to it.
i just dun want ppl to know.
and in the end, God seems really angry with me for not being honest to myself.
and i gave in and responded.
thanks for the prayer from the entire unit.
God, you are testing my courage! =X

today, God give me the assurance once again
that he is in control
he would not give me things i cannot handle.
and all things are possible with him.
there are so many things which are rather impossible in my life.
but today, i know that God can change it to a possible. (:

i accept the h3 chem immediately after God’s assurance.
it seems quite impossible that i will excel, but God can help!
and i will be talking to my tchr that i will need to give up one of my commitment for church
i have thought through it seriously.
God is more worthy than everything else.
it seems quite impossible that she let me off, esp cause i am the overall i/c
but i will try. pray that she can understand.
and the scariest thing is to approach my boss
and ask for off days to go for camp
and 4 hrs off on sat to go svc.
i am afraid that she will just dun employ me anymore…

made a caregroup video and its really funny
i am the emo panda
who is always slashing the wrist.
was reminded of my secondary sch days.
and now, I HAVE NT TOUCHED PENKNIFE to close to a yr.
wahh. this is my impression on my careleader, SANDY!
cause she put the roles one.
and she herself is the QUEEN panda.
who gets to wear the tiera!

today is a great day!
woke up at 10am to study biology last part
and congrats!
i have completed round one revision of bio, chem and math!
i cannot do it on my own strength
thank God for giving me the wisdom to understand, the self discipline to study and the extra boost of energy to study till late and night. (:

did 2 chem exam papers in the afternoon.
later shall attempt bio and math.

thank God for zixin.
she gave me her gsc notes.
which will definitely help in my gsc revision some time later
got to do a 1000 word essay
oh mann. God, please guide me yeah!

so much more things to do
and i just hope that ppl can cooperate
whats the use of setting deadline and reminding all over and over again
when ONLY ONE send in the information?
arghhss.
i am feeling very displeased!
my schedule will be disrupted and i hate that!
is it very hard for you all to help?
have u thought of me?
I GOT A PROPOSAL TO WRITE UP!
arghhs
sometimes, i feel like being irresponsible too.

have been a great sal and light at home
heling mummy out
and talking to daddy
and though both still cannot talk to each other nicely
at least mummy now nt so scary
she seems a little bit happier
and daddy too! (:

looking forward to christmas!
not only the presents.
but also the service!!
i want to complete cg08 asap
and my sis needs to go back to God asap
hope she will convert on christmas.
then we can celebrate our conversion together yearly.
growing close to a year christian.
and how have my life been changed by God?
hmmm. that’s a secret! (:

take care ppl!